Tuesday, October 20, 2009

"I Want You, But I Don't Need You"

Amanda Palmer - Live at The Music Box

I like this song for several reasons; The main one being that it describes perfectly my problems with men. I'm just looking for someone who i enjoy spending time with who enjoys spending time with me. However, i constantly find overly needy guys who make it almost unbarable to enjoy any benifits in our relationship.
So i guess i just have to agree with what Amanda Palmer is saying here. "I want you, but i don't need you" ''so love me or leave me, just try not to need me".

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Cherry Style

This is one of my favorite pieces by Steve Cherry.

If you look closely you'll see how large this chair is,
compared to the (originally warehouse) windows.

(Btw I've seen this chair in person.. It was really neat, as well as the rest of the house)

Wired by Caffine

The aftermath of my massive caffeine consumption can occasionally lead to my mind spilling out random wordage.. so, i decided to type it out; here is an example:

unheard thoughts that even time can't turn.
i wish things worth revealing could reveal things to themselves.. and words would stop there bleeding so i could hear in turn..
life is simple but not easy. this we all do find. if life weren't simple and was easy, would it be so fine?
i wish things weren't written in places i can't see.. for time is still uncertain, and air comes hard to breath..
i wish you'd give me space to breath since the airs too deep for shallow breaths..
and every person that i meet still doesn't know me yet..
for since i saw her smile i haven't truly cried.. because beauty can do that to this mind..
and time still confuses days, and days still confuse time.. but words are never left too far behind.. in writings still we see the delicacy's of time.. for words are words, and you i wish i think i hope are mine; for at least some time..
June is like a flower too beautiful for words, but beauty is so fleeting it fly's faster than birds..
time heals wounds but they don't tell you, it makes them too, it makes them deeper..
i wonder how you've been i haven't seen you for a while, why is it that the only response is good from you? i don't think i know what that means anymore? what 'what' means anymore? do you?
for if time is like this, where its wasted constantly. why do we say we want more if we'd only waist it? we know we'd only waist it.. but time no matter what we say, is still wasted if it feels that way. so i can't deny the sadness caused by this.. my mind still reals and wonders what it means by this.. if only you understood me, i could understand the world. but the world can't understand what can't understand.. and life will go on no matter what you do.. it will continue with, or with out you.. so stop worrying, your wasting more time than you've already wasted.. still i wonder how you are, how you are?

Friday, August 28, 2009

New Mission

A long time ago i decided i wanted to be awesome. Easier said than done but for the most part i achieved entering the general realm of awesome. Thing is, over time i've become lazy, life's become stressful, and all i've worked for seems to be leaving me behind in the foreign place of post-awesomeness.. I don't like this place one bit. I think it's one of the few things in life i actually can't accept. Now at first it was just scary, confusing and annoying, but then the final stage set in. Those i had tried so hard to gain, still love me, but are no longer "wow"ed by me. Were did the wow factor go? I used to be admired for my delightful personality and whitty charm. Both seem to be leaving me. Now i could just accept it like i do everything else in life, but i can't. The one thing i had in life was at least i was happy with who i was, how people saw me, and how i affected the small world around me. I never had much effect, but i had some. So now i'm on a new mission. I am going to try my hardest to be awesome again, even if that means being less me. I'll still be quite unconventional, that's something i can't (and don't want to) change; but i'll be different. It's going to take a whole lot of time and energy, but it's worth it.. Here goes somethin!

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Chapters & Books

Lately i've been thinking about how it feels like a chapter in my life is ending. However i realized that while a chapter or two (maybe three?) have ended this summer it doesn't exactly feel that way. It feels like the entire book is coming to a close. Now i don't mean to say that i feel like my life is ending; quite the opposite actually. I feel like life is series of books, and this is the ending of the second (or third) book. It was only four years long but it was a quite interesting book. And there are many signs it's ending. People are leaving, saying their goodbyes, tying up loose ends, and going off to lead new lives. So now it's my turn to move on with my life, and i have no idea where it's headed. All the roads have turned into paths and i can wander as i please. But eventually i'll have to be careful not to miss the next road. However, i have not yet exactly started this journey. I'm still in the process of saying my goodbyes and tying up my loose ends. Thing is it's not so much the fact the book is ending that worries me; it's that it's been such an amazing book it really does deserve an amazing ending.. so lets just sit back and hope it does :)

Wednesday, August 19, 2009


Hello and welcome to my blog.. this is a place where i've decided to share my randomness and individuality.. i will post videos, artistically rendered photos, and random ideas i wish to share.. i hope you enjoy it.. Pittens FTW!